Well i was wondering if anyone else is living with this issue in some or other form. In my view its a mental health issue but heck i have no idea what triggers it.
For some weeks now for a guy that sleeps like a log, i have been waking at the oddest times in the night and then reliving specific past period of life.
Just so happens this has been the time when we got drafted back in SA.
I cannot stand it, I don't seem to be able to shut it off either and i don't have any "skeletons in my cupboard" either. But man last night i was going through the whole motion of the day we (myself and two friends) got driven down to the station where we were told to muster and boarded a train to be taken off to a military base for training and onward all the way through 18 months. When i say detail I recalled the sandwiches we were given in brown paper bags before embarking. And that is only a small part of the stuff going through my head. The thing that gets me is the incredible detail with which i can recall it all. I mean down to each piece of kit we were issued and the stores running out of my size shirt and having to wear what was called then a bush jacket for weeks on end in place of a shirt.
Here i am battling to remember important things I need to when i need to, yet this "crap" excuse the french of no value to me, i can recall as if it happened yesterday in such darn visual detail i cannot believe it. I tried the "watch tv to change the topic in my head" stunt but it has not worked. Once morning comes and i get on with my routine I have no issues. And no i am not dreaming when i do this i am wide awake.
My Dad used to do a lot of reminiscing about his time in the Navy but for him i always felt i could understand the reasons why, it was the bulk and best part of his youth and a most important part of his life. NOT so for me. I was neither for nor against, i tried to make the most of it and had a positive attitude towards making the most of it and did. I don't persistently talk to my kids about it.
So any of you have any ideas what causes this.
If only we had an erase button where we could simply wipe the hard drive clean and move on.
Are we programmed to relive our entire life in ever increasing detail as we get older? Can anyone else relate to this?