Happens Everyday...still amazed!
I know little babies happen everyday, and I know Alyson is just one little girl in a planet filled with millions of other little baby girls, but I was just wondering if this is just a first time parent thing, or if all parents do this, or every parent everywhere does it to every kid they had.
Yesterday I was watching Alyson playing with her toys. No big deal, but then I became just amazed at her. Not with her toys, not at how cute she looked or even how cute she looked playing...I was just overwhelmed and amazed at HER.
It just blew me away that I created her. The tiny hands, the tiny toes, the miniaturized human being that can talk, smile, start to put sentences together and even get really mad. Its really too much to list, and it sounds so foolish, but holy crap guys I made her. I was just blown away by that. Now maybe its just because she is at that age where she looks like a little toddler one minute, and yet if you put a bottle in her mouth she can still look like a baby. Maybe that was the reason that I looked at Alyson in such a different light, but I was just blown away in amazement.
Is this something all parents see at some point...just utter amazement at what they created? Do you do this with all your kids at some point, or is it just the first one you have? Heck maybe no one else knows what I am talking about here. It's not the "wow she's cute" kind of thing, but the "holy crap, such a simple act created such a complex thing". I must be strange I guess, but looking at Alyson yesterday made me realize that of all the neat things I have created...as a woodworker and as a machinist...Alyson is the most unique, amazing thing that amazes me the most even if there are millions of baby girls out there.
I have no intention of traveling from birth to the grave in a manicured and well preserved body; but rather I will skid in sideways, totally beat up, completely worn out, utterly exhausted and jump off my tractor and loudly yell, "Wow, this is what it took to feed a nation!"