Dave Hawksford
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Saw the Doc the other day , not sure if it's just the time of season or an artist trait of getting a bit depressed, She asked me who I was doing and I told her, I should have kept my mouth shut but .... for some reason about once every few years depression kicks in for a day or 2 and I start thinking I tired of this world and she asked so I told her ; I don't hunt any more so a gun is out of the question , she said that's good. Then asks me: what about now I told her the Harley would be an easy way to go. Then I explained the artist syndrome, am I good enough , will I fail , do people really like what I do. I get these thoughts as all artist do but then again I am not out for at-a-boys this is my stress release. People are asking me to show. I'm not going out looking for shows. She said ok you've dealt with this and have a good handle on how to handle it and that was that. Then that evening I get a call from the shrink in her office. She wants me to come in. Not really sure how to think about that.
I think what I am dealing with more then anything is my cousin a few years older who lost a son years ago , kind of resigned from his family and went to Alaska did the Ice Roads as a trucker , he was a Rodeo bull rider in Tx and Man's man kind of guy. Anyway he committed suicide a couple weeks ago , just very sad to me.
I hope you all don't mind me opening up here.
So I decided to paint this Loon. It's always seemed to be a weird one to me.
I think what I am dealing with more then anything is my cousin a few years older who lost a son years ago , kind of resigned from his family and went to Alaska did the Ice Roads as a trucker , he was a Rodeo bull rider in Tx and Man's man kind of guy. Anyway he committed suicide a couple weeks ago , just very sad to me.
I hope you all don't mind me opening up here.
So I decided to paint this Loon. It's always seemed to be a weird one to me.